Well, I took the weekend off. I needed a break. I was at a breaking point mentally with the fertility and the weight. I took the weekend off from both. I was not at a detrimental part of my cycle to have it affect our chances of conception. I still temped, but I didn’t renew my VIP or enter the temps or worry about forcing sex when we were tired etc. I ate what I wanted which included quite a bit of chocolate chip zucchini bread, garden tomato sandwiches, burgers on the grill and grit casserole. It was a very yummy carb loaded weekend. I worked my butt off in my garden but took my time and planted flowers to make it pretty. I swam laps last night. I relaxed in the pool with my husband. We rented movies and ate Brusters Banana split sundaes. We went to the theater and grilled out with friends.
It was nice. I feel renewed despite the fact my vacation went way too fast and everyone has today off but me. I’m almost ready to go back on a real diet, cutting carbs but not totally since my tomatoes are coming in and I will cut someone if they get between me and a tomato sandwich. LOL
My mind is already looking toward fall (my favorite time of the year) and all the things I want to do this year. I’m starting to look forward again instead of wallowing in the now. I feel better. I gained a pound though, which isn’t too bad considering EVERYTHING I ate. I need to do this for myself though. I need to break that goal weight or I’m afraid I’ll give up. I’m going to do it this month. I AM.
Sometimes, even if its once every few months, I think you need to take a break. A true break..not half hearted ones where its "i'm just goign to watch what I eat blah blah blah". Because you never shut your brain down when you do that. You have to take a mental break but not for long because you can't slip back into an old life style. We always have to watch what we eat forever more, but a long weekend of pure enjoyment, meh, we need that from time to time.