Sunday, February 21, 2010

POAS 2010 is Over

I'm calling it this morning. BFN. I swear there was a trace of brown blood in my urine this morning but I tested anyway with the pink dye FRER. Nothing to interpret. Negative. Couple all that with the drop in temp and its over.

I honestly do not know what happened. There is no denying THREE faint positive tests, a thermal shift or the insanely long LP that should have resulted in a pregnancy. I don't know if you could call this a CP without a Dr.'s confirmation and I don't know if I want to know.

When I throw these peesticks away, I will also be throwing away our last dreams of a 2010 baby.

The best I can hope for this morning is to go to church and pray that god gives me peace with this, because right now, I'm not okay with it.


  1. ((hugs))
    I wish there was something more I could say. I know the disappointment you are feeling though.

    Go get yourself some more Subway (not that it will help but even if it gives you 5 minutes of feeling better then it is worth it)

  2. To answer your question, I have no idea why our bodies just cannot behave. I wish I had wisdom and the knowledge of just what to say. I still have my faith in you. I just know that one day things will change. Does that make this whole mess easier? Of course not. But, I love you and I'm thinking about you.

    Oh, and I nominated you for an award. Thought you could use a little sunshine in your life. ::hugs::

  3. I'm sorry sweetie :-(

    There's still hope to get ku in March and have a December baby. Know that I'm sending you tons of love and good thoughts. I know Beth was looking forward to church today. I hope you both had a nice time.

  4. Oh, babe. I had no idea what all I'd missed over the weekend. Lots of love coming your way. I don't know what else to say.